In honor of Lilly being nine months old and carrying her for nine months, I have been quite sappy and baby feverish and all things reminiscent lately. So I wanted to write about my pregnancy journey some and the things that I miss and the things that I don’t miss, and then lastly the day Miss Lilly came into our world. What a beautiful and joyous day that was and it seems like it just yesterday.
We found out at the beginning of November 2013 that I was pregnant and at the time I was already itching to have my own sweet bundle of joy. Some of our dearest friends had just welcomed the sweetest little girl into their family the month before and my heart just melted. My desire to be a mother was so strong at the time! Before actually finding out that I was pregnant though, there was a small part of me that already knew it to be true. And the day before we officially found out about our own pregnancy, my lovely brother and sister-in-law had just announced that they were expecting. It was almost in that exact moment that I KNEW for a fact that I was pregnant as well. But just to confirm I took a couple (or six) pregnancy test all to test positive that next day. So over the next nine months and four days I soaked up every ounce of being pregnant! I am so thankful that I had such a smooth pregnancy and for Lilly and I to have remained healthy through the entire thing.
We found out at the beginning of November 2013 that I was pregnant and I was already itching to have my own sweet bundle of joy. Some of our dearest friends had just welcomed a little girl into their family the month before and my heart just melted. My desire to be a mother was so strong at the time. Before actually finding out that I was pregnant there was a small piece of me that already knew it was true. And the day before we officially found out about our own pregnancy, my lovely brother and sister-in-law had just announced that they were expecting. It was almost in that exact moment that I KNEW for a fact I was pregnant as well. But just to confirm I took a couple (or six) pregnancy test all to test positive that next day. So over the next nine months and four days I soaked up every ounce of being pregnant! I am so thankful to have had such a smooth pregnancy and for Lilly and I to have remained healthy throughout the entire thing.
That first trimester is so exhausting and emotional and overwhelming, but the best part is that it really doesn’t last long. Especially since you normally find out half way through it anyways. I didn’t deal with any morning/day sickness either. I was just tired. Always. My bedtime was like 8pm and then I felt as though I could sleep till about noon the next day! But I enjoyed the holiday season with the anticipation of a baby joining in the fun and being there for everything the following year. Lilly was in her first wedding as we were able to be apart of our best friends big day that November. I continued to workout and run and eat all things cheese flavored and spicy! Thankfully with no heartburn! As the first trimester ended and the second began, I was super convinced that I already had a bump. But you will notice in my 13 weeks picture that I was fooling myself! And my dear husband just tells me what I want to hear at times 😉
The second trimester is absolutely wonderful because you are so full of ENERGY! You actually feel as though you can stay awake past 8pm and get up at a decent hour and get a million things done during the day. My second trimester was filled with monthly visits to the doctor to check on baby and to be told that, “yay you are gaining weight”. Which is so opposite of what you are use to hearing, but whatever keeps the baby healthy. We took a road trip to Huntsville and Conroe to visit our forever besties and celebrate birthdays and engagements in January. Then had a wonderful Valentines getaway to Seattle. I am so thankful I was in my second trimester and had the energy to walk countless miles all over the city and to actually enjoy it! We also found out that “baby” was a GIRL a few days before our trip, so we spent lots of time dreaming of what she would look like and what she would be like and what she would be called: Lilly Maye. Girls are very rare on Nathan’s side of the family, so just incase it was the only girl ever, we wanted to combine our mothers middle names so that neither felt left out! We are so blessed with such Godly and serving mothers that we wanted to honor them in the most special way. So we combined Marie and Faye to get the most loveliest of names: Maye. We returned home to the challenge of keeping the gender a secret for another week before our reveal party only to wake up the morning of the party to be terribly sick with the stomach bug. In the words of our mothers: “that’s what we get for not telling them sooner!”. HA! But we were able to do it that Sunday and celebrate with family and friends the news about Lilly Maye. The rest of this trimester was filled with more working out, yay! Seriously the best advice I could give anyone- STAY ACTIVE WHILE YOU ARE PREGNANT! Seriously. For me it was running, elliptical, and walking. We were also able to take another trip to Conroe for Lilly to be in her second wedding (she made a great mini-bridesmaid :)) as we celebrated the Raven’s beautiful marriage! I didn’t start wearing maternity clothes until about 20ish weeks. I probably could have gone longer, but I was so convinced that I had a bump! Oh, and maternity clothes are seriously the comfiest ever. So why not! During this time a few others in our life group had announced pregnancies, so baby season was in full swing! What a joy it is to have others around you experiencing the same changes that you are. It was so encouraging and a great time of bonding to have such Godly women around me who were also pregnant. And just like that, the second trimester had come and gone so quickly.
By this time things started to slow down and we began the waiting period, AKA the third trimester.
The third trimester feels like it is AGES long. You feel like: “have I been pregnant forever? Is this baby actually coming? There is literally no more space for her to grow. Why do I want to eat EVERYTHING but then at the same time, I am already full. How come I have to pee again it has only been five minutes?! Everyone is getting swimsuit ready and I have just finished this whole bag of hot Cheetos in one sitting! How many flowy shirts do I have that can be made into maternity shirts? Why is my baby not here yet?!” Just to name a few. But in all honesty I loved the third trimester just as much as the others! Because for me I finally looked pregnant and not just questionably round, and I still felt great, I loved feeling her move and seeing her grow, and I knew that the end was near! I would have a sweet baby girl in no time. The exhaustion would come in waves. As would the restlessness, the uncomfortableness while trying to sleep, the uncomfortableness while trying to put your shoes on, and all things related to not being use to having a huge body that your arms barely reach around. But the third trimester is fun because you get to have baby showers and it is so overwhelming to see how much your little one is already so loved! By so many people, it really is great. And you get to have maternity pictures done, because everyone wants to be reminded of how huge they were. And you get to get the nursery ready and nest and dream of life with three members instead of two. Our traveling was minimal in this last trimester- we took a “baby moon”/anniversary trip to South Padre Island and it was so relaxing and fun. I love time with my husband, he gets all the heart eyes in the whole world. We also went to the lake with his family for the weekend and that was fun and relaxing and hot as well. And we celebrated more babies that were on the way, because baby season. Again, how fun is it to have other ladies to go through this season of life with you! I honestly never got to a point to where I was “over being pregnant”. Even at 4 days late, I wasn’t miserable I was just dying to see that sweet face that I had felt moving inside me for so long. My sister-in-love had her baby on Lilly’s due date and Reid was just too perfect! That is what made the next four days hard. But I knew she would come on her own timing and most importantly the Lords timing. My gracious husband walked and walked and walked with me. We tried everything to make her come and nothing was working. I was still running and working out at this point, and nothing. She was snug as a bug in there. So patience was obviously something the Lord was teaching me during that time. Towards the end of the trimester when the weekly visits start, then the reality of having a baby starts to really hit you. First off, the only way she is getting here is for me to GIVE BIRTH. What?! Ouch. Am I even ready for that?! Just a few thoughts one might have. From the beginning I had said I wanted a natural birth. Or at least attempt it with the mindset that I am not a failure if I cave. But at the same time I told Nathan he wasn’t allowed to let me cave. Bless his soul for putting up with my craziness. So after trying to tell yourself labor and delivery won’t be “that bad” (total lie, that mess hurts. a lot.) Then you move onto: am I even old enough to have a baby? Am I going to be a good mother? Is it safe to leave me with a baby at all times?! You then turn to the Lord for peace, comfort, and trust in Him that if He allowed me to be Lilly Maye’s mother then surely everything would be alright. I just had to put my all in Him because being a parent is hard and tough at times, but I am oh so thankful for the strength and mercy and grace He gives me to push through when I am so tired and exhausted.
But then the time finally came on July 12th at about 5am when Lilly thought it was a good time to start making her way into the world. My contractions began and within a few short hours our lives would soon change forever! Stay tuned for the birth story to be up within the next few days!
Until next time,